成长的阶段

1-12
年幼时还很天真，只顾着吃喝玩乐，完全没有任何顾虑。只会粘着父母亲，与任何小孩都可以做朋友。

13-21
年少时，与所谓的朋友和兄弟姐妹过着人生中最会享受的日子。然后一切与记忆中失去。

21-50
成年了，正在为自己和另一半打算；打工，买房子，买车，结婚，生孩子，养家。

50-
年老的时候才发现，感情谈了，人开始变得自私，不懂得体谅，只顾自己或孙子。其他一切包括另一半和孩子也不理那么多了。

那么成年时，到底正在做什么？所谓的打算，最后的决定只是一个笑话。
问题出于在那‘另一半’是出现在年少时期，而不是成年时期。
当一个人在不成熟的时候，往往做的决定都是错的，却自以为是对的，值得的。凭着这种固执，就已经足以跨过成年期，老的时候才发现当初已经做错决定，根本没有回头的机会。

我个人觉得不要在不确定和不冷静的情况下做出如此愚蠢的决定，不但浪费自己的时间（青春），金钱，精神，也浪费所谓的‘另一半’的一切。乘年轻时，做错决定没关系，可是一定要吸取教训，不要重复错误导致一生的遗憾。人是应该往前看，可是偶尔往后望一望，就不需白走冤枉路了。

After years, dreamt her?

I heard some friends told me that, she wanted to talk to me so badly?

Lets say her ex-boyfriend is A, current boyfriend is B. She said the above thing in A's car, why is she in the A's car WHEN she already have B? Why is she saying those thing to my friend about me IN A's car WHEN she already have B?

If she's really wanted to talk to me as friend, then go ahead. Why would she do so many things? Expressing her emotions towards her friends and my friends? She wanted back this friendship truthfully or just to fool me? I do not know, but my head is telling me that she's gonna fool me again. I look like a good driver because im staying nearby her house? She's desperate to flirt with someone else? She wanted to achieve something greater rather than only 2 flings at the same time?

I hope not gonna dream of her again, after so many years, dreaming her is such a waste of time.

执着？坚持？

我承认我曾经在我人生中只为两样东西而执着，坚持。一，寻求爱情。二，学业。

老实说我对学业早已灰心，为了前途只好懒散地读。

爱情？感谢一位我曾经花了三年时间却追求失败的女生。经验上，我各人对另一半的要求较严格，内在美后外在美为中心。

终于，我还是发现我比较甘愿，舍得，坚持，花时间在工作上。赚些钱，还比浪费时间在无谓的人身上。猪朋狗友？花心的女生？统统不再是我需要的。只有钱才能满足自己，不需要被猪朋狗友骗财又骗友情。更加不需要感到失望和伤心，因为他们不曾为我着想，那我又何必把自己当成心甘情愿被人利用的白痴呢？

只想简单好好地过我的生活，不需要烦恼。

Nightmare

A couple weeks back, i had a nightmare. It really wakes me up and taught me a REAL lesson. I dream that i was dead, became a wild soul (considered ghost). I was wandering around the streets, going through people's body... This nightmare took me to another scene, whereby i was hugging my younger sister in front of computer, and i asked her how could she see me, but she did not explain thoroughly... Then in another scene, i met an old lady looks like Minerva McGonagall in Harry Potter, and she explained my condition, its called .....(a scientific term) and i assumed its a term for some Astral Projection(like in the movie Insidious). Then i pop up from my bed, i was tilt like mad... Tears almost came out... LOL... PHEW~

冇得唔認命

我果然係苦命種~ 唔可以一步登天、唔可以等奇蹟出現。

一定要腳踏实地，努力争取正可以。。。

唔得恨咁多嘅啦~ 邊個叫我生得冇人哋咁好命？

咁就輸細我全部紅包錢咗~ 認命吧啦~

2012

New year new resolution? No idea~ I dont like to bother about my future, anything could happen in the future, just trying not to screw up things all by myself.

A trip to Penang with the bro's and sis's. Here's a summary about the trip.
Went Gurney for dinner--> 2 JW Black Label provided by Shin and Villi settled by 9 of us, next day to Batu Feringgi for beach and i almost die there, night went Mois, i believe is the number 1 club in Penang, the songs really reminds me of the classical Bar-celona where i used to clubbing there. Because the songs are mostly pop, and i like pop mash-up. Then had the best teh ais in Penang, previously went Penang and found this place called Siew Fong Lye, bring RM10 there and u can eat till you die. Sadly the drinks were RM1 and it raised to RM1.50, last time i challenged Jenhao to order 3 teh ais, and we did finished 6 teh ais together. LOL! Other than that, i do not wish to mention those foolish, childish, disappointing, upsetting things here, its public and its pointless to mention about the past, what done is done. So i hope you guys enjoyed your holiday and have a happy Chinese New Year! And of course have a safe trip back to hometown to visit your loved ones. Otherwise i am free to entertain, because i do not feel like going back this year. XD

Judgement

This is what i realized recently, most of the people have to be selfish, and they don't give shit about you.
But, when comes to you concerning about them, their turn to being unappreciative, they won't feel thankful either. They think this is how things works.

And with no offense, what i think for those people who stated clearly on the Facebook or blog saying they don't like people to 'judge' them. I think this only happened when we are still in high school, because you have been judged all the time during the schooling days. I strongly believe the reason why we should being judged by others is because we can change for better, the ugly side of us shall be revealed by others who are truly concern about us, they don't criticize us for fun or to tease us. The so called 'judge' for those ignorant, they are being stubborn and wanted to live in their own world so badly. So let it be when they do not receive any comments or feedbacks from others.

Of course, i would not agree with any unreliable feedbacks or comments that hurts without truth in it. Those comments are about to bring you down instead of letting you know where is the fault. Usually came out from a mouth of a jerk or Axxhole, trust me they are. =)

Btw, to clarify my opinions above, is my own opinion and it given me this idea when i found a girl's blog stated not to judge her, otherwise f..k off. And she's already 19 years old XD what a shame~