Birthday?

No offense to my friends. I am seriously going to get crazy soon because of April-May birthdays. Realized so so so many friends their birthday are on April-May. In April, i've attended more than 4 birthdays. Of course money will have to spend, efforts are meant to pay, and of course attendance are most important and compulsory as a friend of mine. So, instead of hiding at home, i have to attend. Money splashing everywhere, time spending all on it, even effort paid on it, especially on you-know-who's birthday. It's the most disappointed birthday celebration i've ever attend, paid extra money? Nvm la! paid extra effort? I'm willing to do so! So why i'm so upset about it? Because he/she doesn't appreciate our effort at all, never fail to disappoint us. Once was last 2 years, this year is the 2nd time. Repeating mistakes are never forgivable. That's how i think. Chances are given, but the results screwed. Well, nothing else to say except staying away from ... I'm not born to save your asses, i don't born to pay efforts, i don't have to... But i did, no more next time.

around 10 hours ago i guess, one of my primary school friend birthday, take it as a gathering as well, it's a simple and good celebration, i don't expect much at all. But everything goes smoothly. We are not longer kids, we don't throw a party bash to celebrate a birthday. Feels so mature to celebrate in a plain and simple way. I think it's fine, we don't pay money together, we don't argue for money. So why not? If it's my birthday, i rather pay the money by myself than sharing the bill, sharing a bill is exactly sharing a burden and spreading conflicts.

Done expressing my feelings towards 'birthday'.

2 weeks holiday and i've done NOTHING, except watching movies everyday. Fk~ Even my assignment done around only 15%. I'm concerning her more than anything else. Now it's my turn to get panic O.O
Oh yeah~ just thought of something to talk about... I realized the word 'secret' doesn't exist at all, quotes from all the movies, when they say nothing is guaranteed except death, i have to agree with it, no one will able to guarantee YOUR secrets will not spread by him/her once you told him/her. I really have to look thoroughly and carefully into people's mind, what the hell are they thinking? Why can't they thought of keeping promises and secrets? Human are really weak at it... Forget about it... Secrets are also meant to kept to ourselves, it's my fault for sharing to the wrong person. I'm so proud that i actually can keeps secrets and seal it in my brain, or else lots of life would screw up by my words with a simple sentence. I will never share anything important except people who are important to me. That's what i learnt this week...

Time to rest. Good night~

Wondering is she having a good sleep...?